As I lay on my bed, tears flow from my eyes. The memories replayed through my mind. My first toys, first bike-ride, first hug, first kiss.. everything. Tears flow from my eyes, as I remember the first field trip. The memories keep on coming back, like a teather playing and playing on my mind. I can see the face of my lovely mother, my dear father, my cute sisters..
Then I saw IT. The being, the creature of the dark. He stood there. Waiting. Anticipating. No sudden movement. No movement. Just standing still. He looked at me, with a weird face. The face that tells you that he had seen more than what he had bargained for.
Then he moved.
Closer, and closer. As he draws himself near to me, I felt my stomach squirming, as if to tell me to run. But I'm not afraid, neither am I happy. Hollow. Emptiness filled my heart.
Then I remember her.
She's the one that came closer to my heart. The 4th the 3 womans in my life. She's not the most beautiful creature I've ever laid my eyes on. But she's the most magnificent human being that God ever sent to me.
But I've let her down.
Again, tears sprung from my eyes, as the memories, our memories, replayed back in my mind. I remember as I first lay my eyes on her. I remember as we first talked. Then we became close. The memories keep on replaying, as HE drew near. I scream under my breath, "STOP!" but HE just ignore it. "STOP! I miss her... please..." I said, but HE just smile at me. Then my heart is filled with something.
Regret.
The thought of facing this alone. She's not here for me, for she hates me more than she hates her high-school enemies. She, the best thing God ever send to me, hates me.
"I miss her. Give me a chance!"
He stood besides me.
"Will she give u a chance?".
I'm dumbstruck. HE finally spoken, and the words cut through my heart, like the wind that cut through the leaves. My heart's shaking. SHE hates ME!! The truth has come. She's the true love for my heart. The HE said "It's time". I close my eyes and prayed hard that she would be here, beside me. Wishes never came true...
I felt the pain, the numbness. The feeling came from my toes, and make it's way north. As the pain and numbness crawl unto me, the memories, our memories, replayed. Our first date, our first kiss, our first tears, our first laughter. Everything is replayed. I wish for the memories to stop, as the pain of losing someone so dear is much more unbearable than the numbness that I felt..
As the feeling crept on my chest, I finally remember HIM. The Imperial Majesty. The Lord of the Universe. He Who Commands The World and The After-World. As I sprung my final tears, I ask for HIS Forgiveness. I ask HIM, please open up her heart so that she'll forgive me too.
The creature just stood before me. The sands of time has finally ran out. The pain is excruciating. I missed her. I missed her touch. Her kisses. Her words. Her smile. I missed the whole her. I'm sorry, but I've let u down, Sayang.
With one, final breath, I admit, with whole-heartedly, that there is no God but Allah, and Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah.
The it hit me! The sound of an alarm. I woke up. It's a dream. No, it's a nightmare. And yet I found out that I missed my Sayang more than I missed anyone else. I looked around, and I saw HIM. The entiti of death. The one who'll take u away from the world of illusion. He smile at me. The first lesson of LIFE and LOVE is over. With a smile he said..
"I'll be back..."
Then I saw IT. The being, the creature of the dark. He stood there. Waiting. Anticipating. No sudden movement. No movement. Just standing still. He looked at me, with a weird face. The face that tells you that he had seen more than what he had bargained for.
Then he moved.
Closer, and closer. As he draws himself near to me, I felt my stomach squirming, as if to tell me to run. But I'm not afraid, neither am I happy. Hollow. Emptiness filled my heart.
Then I remember her.
She's the one that came closer to my heart. The 4th the 3 womans in my life. She's not the most beautiful creature I've ever laid my eyes on. But she's the most magnificent human being that God ever sent to me.
But I've let her down.
Again, tears sprung from my eyes, as the memories, our memories, replayed back in my mind. I remember as I first lay my eyes on her. I remember as we first talked. Then we became close. The memories keep on replaying, as HE drew near. I scream under my breath, "STOP!" but HE just ignore it. "STOP! I miss her... please..." I said, but HE just smile at me. Then my heart is filled with something.
Regret.
The thought of facing this alone. She's not here for me, for she hates me more than she hates her high-school enemies. She, the best thing God ever send to me, hates me.
"I miss her. Give me a chance!"
He stood besides me.
"Will she give u a chance?".
I'm dumbstruck. HE finally spoken, and the words cut through my heart, like the wind that cut through the leaves. My heart's shaking. SHE hates ME!! The truth has come. She's the true love for my heart. The HE said "It's time". I close my eyes and prayed hard that she would be here, beside me. Wishes never came true...
I felt the pain, the numbness. The feeling came from my toes, and make it's way north. As the pain and numbness crawl unto me, the memories, our memories, replayed. Our first date, our first kiss, our first tears, our first laughter. Everything is replayed. I wish for the memories to stop, as the pain of losing someone so dear is much more unbearable than the numbness that I felt..
As the feeling crept on my chest, I finally remember HIM. The Imperial Majesty. The Lord of the Universe. He Who Commands The World and The After-World. As I sprung my final tears, I ask for HIS Forgiveness. I ask HIM, please open up her heart so that she'll forgive me too.
The creature just stood before me. The sands of time has finally ran out. The pain is excruciating. I missed her. I missed her touch. Her kisses. Her words. Her smile. I missed the whole her. I'm sorry, but I've let u down, Sayang.
With one, final breath, I admit, with whole-heartedly, that there is no God but Allah, and Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah.
The it hit me! The sound of an alarm. I woke up. It's a dream. No, it's a nightmare. And yet I found out that I missed my Sayang more than I missed anyone else. I looked around, and I saw HIM. The entiti of death. The one who'll take u away from the world of illusion. He smile at me. The first lesson of LIFE and LOVE is over. With a smile he said..
"I'll be back..."
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