Freaking post...

Been Tagged (Ripped from Mary-Mary Zaemon)

1) Name of a person who made you laugh last night?
Fariz The Main Man (Gay moments @ Rumah Persatuan hahahahah)

2) What were you doing at 0800?
Woke up to the sound of a pouring rain.. ehh.. I mean.. Woke up..

3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Tengok gmbar alieya.. comel!! Rindu!! *tapi tak penah jmpe*

4) What happened to you in 2006?
New job. New friends. Oh.. and beaten Dark Valefor of Final Fantasy X haha

5) What was the last thing you said out loud?
"Aku tak dengar sound gitar ko lah kimak!!"

6) How many beverages did you have today?
2. Dua2 nescafe Mummy..

7) What colour is your hairbrush?
No hair = No hairbrush..

8) What was the last thing you paid for?
RM 6 = Nasi Ambang Umah Persatuan

9) Where were you last night?
Rumah Persatuan..

10) What colour is your front door?
Brown. Dan Brown huhu..

11) Where do you keep your change?
Where they belong.

12) What's the weather like today?
The sun is out. The birds are flying happily. Wait2, that's no bird, that's a huge bitch..

13) What's the best ice-cream flavour?
CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!

14) What excites you?
A hot girl's ass. Uhhhh...

15) Do you want to cut your hair?
......... refer to question 7

16) Are you over the age of 25?
uhhh.. 25 years, 1 month and 17 days

17) Do you talk a lot?
U damn rite I do!!

18) Do you watch the O.C?
O.C? uhhh...

19) Do you know anyone named Steven?
Steven Lambert. My imaginary pet dragon.

20) Do you make up your own words?
what words?

21) Are you a jealous person?
HELL YEAH..

22) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter 'A'.
Ahmad, Azrul, Ayam, Abu, Arnab, America, Along, Angah, Acik, Anem, Ajoi, Abang Man, Abang Bundy, Abang Ramzee, Abang Zul etc.. hahahahah

23) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
Khumaira, Kentang, Keropok, Kambing, Kelang, Kak Long, Kak Cik, Kak Ati.. :p

24) Who's the first person on your received call list?
Roslinda

25) What does the last text message you received say
"ko dah bekpes?"

26) Do you chew on your straw?
Nope. I eat 'em up raw

28) Where's the next place you're going to?
Masjid.

29) Who's the rudest person in your life?
Nyeh.. some slut..

30) What was the last thing you ate?
Cucur Udang..

31) Will you get married in the future?
InsyaAllah... kalau tak nak jilat ***** saper? hahahah..

32) What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
Last was Hitman.

33) Is there anyone you like right now ?
............................

34) When was the last time you did the dishes?
Tak ingat *buli adik*

35) Are you currently depressed?
Yeahhh..

36) Did you cry today?
Nope..

37) Why did you answer and post this?
Better than watching some transvestite's porno flick..

38) Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
i have no idea..

Nasi Lemak Kampung Oren.

I'm blogging from the office. Haha.

Having a fever these few days, which means I have to listen to Mummy's blabbering about hot-water bath and hot drinks and early sleep and stuff. Hahaha it doesn't matter she's MY Mummy and I love her more than anything.

If there's anything that kept me busy while I am sick, it's Final Fantasy X. Yeah, I know it's an old game but heck.. haven't been able to beat 'em dark aeons. Damn it. I'm leveling up, though. Watch out dark aeons, I'm coming to get ya! :p

Crazy Train

Crazy Train..

Crazy, but that's how it goes
Millions of people living as fools
Maybe it's not too late
To learn how to love
And forget how to hate

Mental wounds not healing
Life's a bitter shame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train

I've listened to preachers
I've listened to fools
I've watched all the dropouts
Who make their own rules
One person conditioned to rule and control
The media sells it and you live the role

Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train

I know that things are going wrong for me
You gotta listen to my words
Heirs of a cold war
That's what we've become
Inheriting troubles I'm mentally numb
Crazy, I just cannot bear
I'm living with something that just isn't fair

Mental wounds not healing
Who and what's to blame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train.

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If you have all the wealth in the world, then you are the best person to be friend with. People don't fucking care if you're a nice person or a rapist, as long as you have the money to buy people's believe, you're on top of the world.

People judge you with by looking at your career, your monthly income, your car, your houses etc. None looks you at who you really are, the heart that decides the person's outcome.

Teringat kata-kata ustaz.. "Tengok dengan mata, tak boleh pakai. Dengar dengan telinga, tak boleh pakai. Lihat dan dengar dengan akal yang waras..." or something like that. Point is I was taught from the very beginning to look into the heart of others and not by their races or believes or income or career or whatever.

A lowly beggar can have the heart of 1000 angels while a powerful King can have a heart of a beast.

Screw the world.

Thanks Ozzy.

The Unspoken. The Unsent.

To my beloved parents..

I am sorry. Sorry for not being the bright child you are hoping I would be. I am sorry to disappoint you in a way that you are feeling ashame of having me as your son. Though I am trying to set things right, I know that things will never be the same, and I can never make you guys proud.

I'm sorry I don't own a fancy car like some of your friend's son or daughter. I am sorry I don't own a piece of paper called 'Master' or 'Degree' or something like that. I am sorry to disappoint you over and over again with my bad attitude and ruthless way of thinking. I am so sorry. Though I love both of you equally with my heart and soul, I know now that I can never hear laughters from both of you, and I can never feel the loving touch of a father used to give to his child when the child needed him the most. I am sorry. I love both of you so much that I'll die for you. Both of you are the King and Queen of my heart. I wish both of you would just stop and turn around, coz I am always right here behind you all, hoping that you would need me one day. And I am still waiting...

To my dear little sister,

Oh how you have grown into such a fine young lady! Though you do look like a boy sometimes :P I truly look at you as the young, vulnerable girl just like when you were born. I truly love you, you are truly my pride and joy. Though sometimes I act like a complete moron, I certainly wish that I could lift you up when you are down. I am sorry for not being the best brother you've ever known. I am sorry that I am not there when you needed me. And I am sorry for not being able to give you the best advice when you need them. I am sorry.

To all of my bestest friend a person could ever have,

I know you guys will disagree on this entry. But heck, I am dead bored now. Thank you guys. Though I always act like a complete idiot, you guys are the ones who helped me out when I was down. Yeah, I know, you all didn't literally helped me, but being there and makes me laugh is the best thing a person could have ever done to me. I am sorry I am not the best of friends you guys can have, I hope our friendship would last forever. InsyaAllah..

To the girl who stole my heart,

I am sorry for not being there for you when you were down. I am sorry for not being able to hug you when you need me. Your smile makes my day, and hear this.. I L.O.V.E Y.O.U! Your presence soothes my aching heart, and receiving your sms-es really put a smile on my empty heart. I certainly wish I could fly over to your room and hug you until the end of time, yet I do not have the power nor the authority to do so. So all I can do is hope for the best. I am sorry. I am sorry for causing you grieve and sadness.

All I wanted was for all of you to be happy for knowing me. If any of you felt that it is a mistake to even know me, then I am sorry. I apologize from the bottom of my heart. I love all of you. Thank you for everything that you all have done for me....

Love of my life, you hurt me,
You broken my heart, now you leave me.

Love of my life cant you see,
Bring it back bring it back,
Dont take it away from me,
Because you dont know what it means to me.

Love of my life dont leave me,
Youve stolen my love now desert me,

Love of my life cant you see,
Bring it back bring it back,
Dont take it away from me,
Because you dont know what it means to me.

You will remember when this is blown over,
And everythings all by the way,
When I grow older,
I will be there by your side,
To remind how I still love you
I still love you.

Hurry back hurry back,
Dont take it away from me,
Because you dont know what it means to me.

Love of my life,
Love of my life.

*sigh*

D.A.R.K A.E.O.N.S

It's decided.

I am gonna replay Final Fantasy X : International, and I am gonna beat the crap out of those dark aeons and Penance himself.

For those who didn't know what the heck am I talking about, dark aeons the evil version of Yuna's aeons (or summonned beast in general gaming terms), and is considered as the most hardest optional bosses in FF histories, having maxed out stats and devastating attack which always follows with status effects. Penance is the last optional boss in FFX:I, if u can beat all of the dark aeons, Penance will appear on the world map.

Wish me luck guys, hell I am gonna need it A LOT!!

Prince...

Prince Of Darkness

My victims are rich of poor, young or old, strong or weak
I cause millions of accidents, I am cancer in your bones
I fathered the lie, twist what you say, speak not the truth
I am insidious, impartial, deep inside your chromosomes

I take what you love, and leave you in tears
I imprison your soul, your hopes are my games
I strip you of pride, my promise is in vain
While you burn at the stake I dance with the flames

I bring poverty, sickness and death
A worthless handshake, the slickest thief, I steal your wealth
I answer your prayers for greed and lust
More than evil, I laugh at your trust

I am more powerful than all the armies of the world
I am more violent than violence, more deadly than death
I have destroyed more men than all the nation's wars
I am relentless, unpredictable, waiting for your last breath

Evil, more evil than violence
Violent, more violent than death
Deadly, more deadly than man
I am yeah, yeah, I'm evil I am

My kingdom corrupt with dissent
Your sins erupt by my intent
I loathe your prayer, I wallow in sin
Let the nightmare begin
Prince of darkness, your satanic highness
Prince of darkness, the devilish serpent, the dreaded Lucifer
Prince of darkness

I take what you love, and leave you in tears
Imprison your soul, your hopes are my games
I strip you of pride, my promise is in vain
While you burn at the stake I dance with the flames

Prince of darkness, your satanic highness
Prince of darkness, the most beautiful angel
Prince of darkness, the devilish serpent, the dreaded Lucifer
Prince of darkness, unpredictable, the prince of darkness
Prince of darkness

Hades

I am so freaking down. Everyone seems to be doing so well and I am happy for 'em. My best-butt, I mean, bud, Shah, now got a job in Kiswire (is this how u spell it, bitch?), and he's making quite progress. Injured his knee during the process of 'sitting down' (or so he said) and end up having that weird chinese patch on his left knee. But he is doing great and I am proud to be his friend. Hahaha dah keje baru tau penat kan kimak? :P

Princess Lilo, now she's made a HUGE, and I do mean, HUGE, progress in her life. Her Mr.Panjang did that merisik thing and yeah she's gonna get married. Boo hoo the nightmare came true. I am finally losing my bestest friend I ever had. Dah tak bole lagi ajak lepak2, although I know that Panjang doesn't mind at all. Kene hormat maaa.. orang sudah mau kawin... hahaha... Princess, I am proud of you. Finally ader orang jaga dah.. I can rest in peace knowing that you are in good hands. Tapi jangan risau.. anak ko tetap akan ku goda supaya menyertai diriku ini hahahaha!!! *Hari ini uncle Just ajar mende baru*

Fariz is doing his master, and he's doing great. Well at least that's what he told me. It's kinda ironic. You see.. Fariz sucks big time in Chemistry back in our high school days. And when I say sucks, I mean sucks... He can even sleep in the damn class, and he even showed me his report card and trust me, it ain't pretty hahahahaha....

Bayah @ Kak Noi dah lama tak contact. She's damn busy kat Pontian, ntah ape tah die buat. Tapi she's such a nice Big Sis. Rindu nak sepak pelipat dier huhu... But she's doing great. Offered hell of an advice, though sometimes her words seems like a freaking drunk woman trying to pretend that she is a cowgirl.

Firdauz @ Bullu @ Boo Loo is currently posted in Pontian. He said that he's starting to like that place. Forgot the name of the place but I'm sure he'll be happy and content there. Though he seems more sissy now (kimak ajak jam penatlah, demamlah.. ngada2), but he's fun to be with.

Elaine, last I've heard from her, is STILL babysitting that Izz dude. Hehehe.. belajar2 tinggi2, balik umah jadi nanny. Tapi takpe, she seems to enjoy it, and she's having that bond/chemistry thing with that kid. I think that kid is calling her 'mama'.. I wonder does she even breast-feed Izz? Ugly.. ugly sight... T.T

Other's are moving on towards their lives the normal way. Going to work, work like their lives depends on it (which it is), go home, sleep, repeat step one. The same goes for me. Oh I am changing my job (again). Now I'll be serving Lynn's company, Auspac Solutions, as a System Support. I am also trying to learn PHP, I wonder what does that means. Hahaha.. I guess I am moving on, too.

Life is really challenging me. I have to face it up, and the most scariest part is that I am facing it alone. Family is there but hey, people don't know the darkest part of my life, my family etc. People around me are pushing me around, putting the blame on me. Yeah, let the black sheep of the family took the blame. Let the most unsuccessful, most lamest of 'em, took the blame.

I hate these people. Tau lah aku bodoh tapi tak payahlah blame aku. Sampai bila? Just because I dun have a fucking degree, a fucking master, doesn't mean that I don't have the right to live, the right to love and be loved. Damn it..

I miss her...

I.S.L.A.M

I've always browse around www.youtube.com, searching for any new videos and stuff that I like. Most of the times I'll search for live videos from my favourite band and, of course, some of the gruesome death videos. From execution to accidents, you name it, I'll search for it! But, I've come across some of the videos that has something to do with religion, mainly Islam. Some comments on Islam without actually know what is Islam. SOOOO I decide to blog about Islam. This does not means that I am such a devoted and pious muslim. This is what I truly believes in and this is all I can do thus far to fight and protect the religion which I love so dearly.

Islam is a religion brought to Earth by Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. The word "ISLAM" derived from an arabic word "SALAM" which means "Safe" or "Tranquility" "Serenity". The word "Islam" itself, in fact, was not given by the Prophet Muhammad, but it was given by Allah Himself.

"This day have I perfected your religion for you, completed My favour upon you, and have chosen for you Islam as your religion"

Holy Quran, Al-Maidah:3

So basically Islam is NOT a religion INVENTED by Muhammad S.A.W, but it's a religion which is from Allah and was given to us through Muhammad S.A.W.

So basically Islam does not promote killings of the non-believers. This is proven when Muhammad S.A.W himself opens up Madinah and allows the Jewish to settle there alongside the fellow muslim. Islam taught us to defend ourself, killing is only if there is NO OTHER SOLUTIONS. We do have capital punishment, but this is done only after ALL OF THE REQUIREMENT WERE MET and not SOME OF THE REQUIREMENT! Even if all of the requirement were met, if the family of the victims decide to forgive the condemned, the condemned is set free, but he/she will have to pay the victim's family some amount, be it in order of cash, or cattle etc.

People out there say something bad about Allah, about Muhammad, and about the Holy Qur'an. Heck they even say that the Qur'an copies the bible etc. This is not so. It's simple. If the Qur'an were copies of the Bible, then I'd say that the Bible is a copy of Torah, since Torah came before Bible. In the Bible, there is the Old Testament, it is said to be Moses's book, and the New Testament, said to be Jesus's book. Yet we, the muslim, strongly believes that there's NEW testament, there's OLD testament, and heck there must be some sort of and FINAL Testament to clarify both books. Yeah you've guessed it, we believed that Al-Qur'an is the LAST TESTAMENT send down to us to clarify all the other books. We, the muslims, MUST believe the other books, the Psalm (Zabur), Torah (Taurat), Bible (Injil) and Al-Qur'an. So we do not actually say they are 100% wrong, we are saying that Muhammad S.A.W came to perfected the religion and to unite all the people under one God.

But of course there are some of the religions which clearly oppose Muhammad's teachings. The Christian's trinity concept if one of them. We believe that Jesus is Allah's Prophet, one of the five Ulul'azmi or Great Prophet. He did preach to his people, yet he DID NOT DIE on the cross. He was ascended to Heaven with Allah's Will and he will descend back to Earth to fight and kill Dajjal (or Anti-Christ as the Christians calls him).

Look at it this way. Bible did not teach the Christians how to handle those who commits blasphemy, or adultery, or thief etc. How those previous people punish the criminal is based on human thoughts. But the Bible stated that these people have commited sins and God hated them until they repent. But with the coming of Al-Qur'an, it's stated in it that God hated them until they repent, they have commited sins, just like the Bible BUT WITH ONE MORE THING, the punishment they must faced to balance the justice.

Muhammad S.A.W does not copy the Bible, this is not possible. He can't even read! The original Bible came from Allah S.W.T. so does the Al-Qur'an. There is so many scientific prove in the Qur'an to prove that it is from Allah and NOT from a human's writing. I'll blog about this later on.

I wish that you, who is reading my blog right now, to stop and think about Islam. It doesn't matter if you are a muslim or not. Stop judging Islam. Don't say things that you don't know. I believe that all religion teaches their believers to do good deeds.

So please stop hating Islam.

Wonderful?

Sekarang nih macam2 masalah yang datang. Aku tak dapat cope ngan study aku. I think I'm gonna fail this sem. Mummy baru kuar spital, so skarang memang zaman kejatuhan ah, masalah ekonomi. Lepas tuh bolehh pulak adik aku pinjam laptop orang, umah die kene pecah dan laptop tuh hilang. Aku yang tatau ape nih, tiba2 kene ganti laptop tuh. Yeah atas dasar akulah abang dia, bile susah ramai yang mintak tolong kat aku tapi bila senang...

Kelas pulak aku tak dapat pegi. Sem nih amik account pulak tuh. Teringat zaman2 sekolah yang mana aku blajar akaun, dan aku berjaya untuk fail dalam SPM haha. Skarang aku kene relive that nightmare.. God help me.. T.T

Banyak lagi masalah yang datang. Susah nak cakap. Penat nak cerita. Aku dah tak percaya kat orang. Walau sesiapa pun yang datang nak hulur bantuan, aku taknak. Phobia dengan orang yang pura2 baik tapi last2 aku jugak yang kena. Tapi... ader someone, she's kinda different. Nak kate sengal, memang die sengal pon.. hahah... But she's different. Stakat ni die takde lah tipu aku ker, tapi sakitkan ati aku banyak kali lah!! Rase macam nak tumbuk aje die tapi nnt die amik kaedah pulak :P

Sekarang ni life memang tengah huru-hara, tapi tuh lah.. thanks to puan cacing, aku rase ok sikit lah. Dia banyak kasik aku peluang.. peluang untuk kutuk die hahahah... ape hubungan yang kami ada, sorang aje yang tau dalam dunia nih. Yang lain tatau. We decide to keep it a secret. We are learning to trust each other. Ni part yang susah sket. Tapi we are trying.

Yang penting skarang Ramadhan. Bukan masa untuk aku pikir pasal orang, tapi masa untuk aku pikir pasal aku. Mana tau tah2 tak sempat tengok raya aku dah balik, tapi best jugak balik time2 Ramadhan ni....

Sedih.. sakit ati sume ader skarang... Dah 3 kali dah seseorang itu berbuka kat umah aku. We used to be so close, tapi skarang dah jauh macam langit ngan sarang semut. Aku yang buat jarak ni. Aku yang buat jurang yang besar ni. Aku rasa seolah2 dia dah taknak aku, bukan taknak ape, maksud aku kawan pon taknak. So aku jauhkan diri langsung dari dia, untuk tolong dia aje. Biarlah, dia dah hepi ngan life die. Hidup dia dah teratur, buat ape die nak pikir pasal idup aku yang tak teratur ni?

Tiba2 aku rase macam nak terbang pegi jmpe Puan Cacing... hahahah agaknyer aperlah yang dier makan berbuka ehh...?

... Jibril teaches!!

Pada suatu hari, sedang baginda Muhammad S.A.W sedang duduk bersama para sahabat, maka datanglah seorang pemuda yang berpakaian serba putih, dengan rambut yang serba hitam. Pada raut wajahnya tiada kelihatan tanda2 kepenatan, manakala tiada pula tanda2 beliau telah berjalan jauh, sedangkan para jemaah tidak mengenal akan jejaka itu.

Maka pemuda itu berjalan ke arah baginda Muhammad S.A.W dan duduk di hadapan baginda. Beliau duduk dengan lutut beliau bertemu dengan lutut baginda, dan setelah meletakkan tangan beliau di atas peha baginda, beliau bertanya "Wahai Muhammad, terangkanlah kepadaku tentang Islam". Maka baginda menjawab dengan tenang "Islam adalah mengaku tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan Muhammad adalah pesuruh Allah, mendirikan solat, menunaikan zakat, berpuasa pada bulan Ramadhan dan menunaikan haji bagi mereka yang mampu". Setelah mendengar penjelasan tersebut pemuda itu berkata "Benar kata-kata kamu itu". Maka para jemaah berasa semakin pelik, mengapa pemuda itu membenarkan kata2 baginda sedangkan pemuda itu yang bertanya. (Sepatutnya orang yang bertanya adalah orang yang tidak tahu akan fakta sesuatu)

Kemudian pemuda itu bertanya "Terangkan kepada aku tentang Iman". Baginda menjawab "Iman adalah mempercayai dengan sepenuh hati kepada Allah, Malaikat2-Nya, Kitab2-Nya, Rasul2-Nya, mempercayai sepenuh hati kepada Hari Qiamat dan kepada Qada' dan Qadar." Setelah selesai, sekali lagi pemuda itu berkata "Benar kata-kata kamu itu."

Pemuda itu kemudiannya bertanya "Jikalau begitu terangkanlah kepadaku tentang Ihsan". Baginda menjawab lagi "Ihsan adalah menyembah Allah seolah-olah kamu melihat Dia. Walaupun kamu tidak melihat Dia, yakinlah bahawa Dia melihat kamu"

Pemuda itu bertanya lagi "Ceritakan kepada aku tentang waktu Hari Qiamat". Rasulullah menjawab "Yang bertanya dan yang ditanya tidak ada pengetahuan tentang itu. Allah sahaja yang mengetahui tentangnya (waktu Hari Qiamat)"

Pemuda itu masih lagi bertanya. "Jikalau begitu terangkan kepadaku tentang tanda2 Hari Qiamat." Rasulullah menjawab "Tidak akan datang hari Qiamat sehingga seorang hamba melahirkan tuannya sendiri dan kamu akan melihat orang yang miskin dan fakir berebut2 membina gedung2 yang besar."

Setelah mendengar segala penjelasan baginda, pemuda itu berkata "Memang benar kata2 kamu itu wahai Muhammad" dan kemudian beliau pun berlalu meninggalkan jemaah tertanya2. Setelah beberapa ketika Rasulullah berpaling kepada Saidina Umar dan bertanya "Tahukah kamu siapa pemuda yang bertanya itu?" Saidina Umar menjawab "Allah dan Rasul-Nya lebih mengetahui."

Baginda menjawab "Ketahuilah, bahawa pemuda tersebut adalah Malaikat Jibril a.s, yang datang kepada kamu semua untuk mengajar kamu tentang agama kamu. (Islam)"

....antara pegangan dan kehendak..

Ohhh yeahhh Ramadhan is here! Pintu langit di buka, malaikat turun ke bumi dengan membawa khabar gembira. Walaupun aku sedih, sangat2 sedih, tapi aku pujuk jugak hati aku dengan melihat ke langit. Aku harap sangat yang kat atas tu sayang aku dan tak tinggalkan aku. T.T

Takde ape lagi yang aku bole buat. I have lost her. Lagi skali aku tipu diri aku sendiri.. "Let's be bestfriend!", that is what I've said to her. Tipu lagi. Ustaz dah banyak kali cakap... "Amanah jangan pecah, cakap jangan bohong!" Haihhh.. macam mana nak mintak Tuhan sayang, kalau lidah sendiri tak boleh jaga? Ustaz pesan solat tu bukan berdiri lurus tapi berdiri betul. Apa yang betul? Pegangan kena betul. Cakap jangan bohong. Amanah jangan pecah. Baru berdiri boleh betul. Baru Tuhan sayang. Tapi Tuhan paham, yang aku tengah sakit sangat2, aku nak buat sume orang happy, last2 diri sendiri terkena. Takpa lah, ujian ni berat tapi yang best Dia bagi time2 masuk Ramadhan.

Aku dah start lari daripada semua orang. Aku lari dari kawan2 aku. Aku lari dari family aku. Sbb aku tau dorang akan blame aku. So aku lari. Satu2 nye tempat yang aku tak lari adalah daripada persatuan. Persatuan ape? I'll keep it to myself for now... :p Apa patut aku buat? Aku dah penatlah pura2, faking my smiles, faking my jokes. Balik umah sorang2 jugak jadinye. Kawan ajelah ngan gitar kapok aku (tu pon Fariz bagi) ngan PS2 kesayangan aku tuh. Hahah kembali kepada yang asal. Duduk jadi anti-social *perkataan yang moden dan sopan untuk kera sumbang*

Aku start rindu kat dia. Aku start fikir yang bukan2. Aku mula belajar cemburu. Tapi kenapa? It's over. Cume kadang2 aku fikir, kalau lah mereka2 ni berada kat tempat aku, boleh tahan ke? Boleh buat macam aku ke, faking everything so that nobody knows? Times like this, aku rindu pulak kat Elaine. Yup, the one and only Granny. Selalu kalau aku tepon die mesti makan McD ngan Fariz n Shah haha. Walaupun aku tak luahkan tapi by spending time with them aku lupa masalah aku. Dan sedikit demi sedikit Elaine akan bagi jalan untuk masalah aku. She is not THAT great but hey she has that instinct of a Grandma, errr, I mean, a woman. Hehehe... ^_^;;

I wonder what is she doing right now? She must be sleeping, coz she's been working even on the 1st Ramadhan. Haiya bulan nih arwah pun dapat cuti, tak kene seksa, tapi orang atas muka bumi tatau nak rehat. -_-" Semalam breakfast, things turn out fine, aku sedih tapi aku seronok sangat dapat jumpa dia. Tiba2 dia start meleleh air mata, aku ingatkan kaki dia chagu (ok bad joke..) start cakap die sakit perut. Well aku ingatkan biase punye sakit perut, aku pi lah beli air ngan asam sket, aku balik kat keta tengok die takde dalam keta. Aihh mati2 aku ingatkan dia pi toilet, rupanya dia dah kat tepi keta aku , muntah. Mau tak risau? Nak aje aku papah dia pi klinik tapi nak buat guane, dia taknak. Risau nak mati aku, tatau nak describe guane. So aku hantar die balik, paksa jugak die rest, kalau tak nak pi keje. Gila agaknye nak keje ngan badan sakit. Tuh takpe lagi ni seluar kene muntah. Ngan aku takpelah aku memang tak geli, tapi ngan orang lain? Mau kene pukul ngan programmer sbb bau muntah dalam opis. So daripada dia kene pukul ramai2 lebih baik aku soh die balik rest. Hahah nasib baik aku sempat pegi tempat2 yang aku target hari tuh. Tuh lah kuasa Allah, kita buat menda baik, kita ikhlas, pasti Dia tolong. Agaknye lah kot, kalau bukan Allah sapa lagi boleh tolong aku?

So antara pegangan dengan kehendak, aku pilih pegangan. Sakit, amat2 sakit aku rasa sekarang. Aku tatau ape patut aku buat, aku nak luahkan tapi tak lepas. Mungkin sbb aku sorang2 tatau nak luahkan kat sape. Nak aje aku nangis ke, pukul kucing ke, curik makanan baby ke... tapi nak nangis malu, nak pukul kucing takut kene pukul balik ngan gangster kucing, nak curik makanan baby takut kene pukul ngan bapak baby tuh... So last2 aku tulis blog nih tengah malam, padan muka korang yang baca :P

Baru aku faham kenapa Muhammad S.A.W itu diangkat sebagai Ulul'Azmi, nabi teragung, paling banyak kene test, paling banyak bersabar. Senang cakap baginda adalah makhluk yang paling best, semua makhluk kalah ngan baginda. Why? Bukan hanya sbb baginda tuh khatamun nabiyin, penutup sekalian nabi, tapi sbb banyak kali baginda diuji. Antara Islam dan kehendak baginda. Baginda tetap dengan pegangan baginda walaupun sakit sangat2. Aku faham, dan last2 aku teringin pulak nak jumpa baginda. :p aku tau mustahil, tapi manalah tau...

Sakit sangat2... Allah sahaja yang tahu... T.T

I am missing someone whom I am not suppose to miss. Sorry, but I am missing you T.T

W.H.Y...

........ I am so messed up. My life is turning upside down in one flick. First there was this freaking thing that happen back there in the office that nearly cost me my job. And it's not even my freaking fault! Then along came another problem... family.

As much as those who is close to me know, I do not have a typical happy malay family. Heck even my dad is not a Malay. Hence the terms 'happy family' does not fit into my life. Plus the way that I screwed up back then realllllyyyy helps me with the relationship. I guess that is why I am really into those who is close to me, be it friend or bestfriend or even that 'special' kinda girlfriend, know wot I'm saying?

She has left me. Not in the way that I imagine, that is. The worst part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. And she has that nice timing, too. Just when I need someone so damn much, she decided to make the move, to pull the switch, to let the noose do the work. It hurts. So much. If only I can let the love go away. Yet it kept on clinging onto my heart, like a big, ugly cancer pulling me down to the ground. Oh wait, here's the best part. Facing these situations alone. Yerp, you heard me boy. A.L.O.N.E. The burden is starting to weight down on me. She left me. Not that I hate her, I don't even blame her. But to think that she.... well let's just say if we switch places she would be pissed off. :P

Now here I am, 3.00am in the morning, blogging away about how I feel right now. I am suppose to lie down on the bed. Usually the time before I, no, WE go to sleep, is OUR time. The time when either one of us call and we talk about what happen during our day. Some are serious, most are hillarious, and the best part is no matter how ugly the day was, it will turn out to be a beautiful day once I've talked to her before I go to sleep. Hence I can sleep soundly. Well you can say that she is my sleeping pills. :P

These things happens because of the mother rejected me due the fact that I do not meet certain criteria. Well I do not blame the mother, she is just protecting the child. But what I learn from someone is that we, as a child, has the ability to prove to our mother that we are choosing the right choice. Life is nothing but choices, and we are the ones who made the move.

Penatlah cakap English. Walaupun aku suruh dia ikut kata2 mak dia, tapi deep down inside aku nak dia buat satu pilihan sendiri, bukan atas pengaruh mana2 pihak. Aku nak dia buang perasaan sayang kat mana2 pihak (termasuk aku) dan pilih berdasarkan akal yang waras. Tapi aku manusia biasa. Aku nak dia pilih aku. Aku nak dia kat sbelah aku. Aku nak dia sayang aku, tolong aku bila aku susah, gelakkan aku bila aku susah gila (haha), dan yang paling penting, ada kat sbelah aku bila aku perlukan dia. Macam yang aku selalu cakaplah, bila aku ader orang yang aku sayang, memang nahaslah orang tuh coz she will be the centre of everything!! :P

Skarang aku baru tau yang lately nih dia ader msg ngan orang lain. Walaupun kawan, tapi hati aku rasa tak best jugak. So skarang aku kene penatkan mata aku sebelum aku tido. Kami dah takder "waktu bersama" lagi. (Hey don't get the wrong idea!) Aku betul2 rindukan dia. Bukan main2, bukan kata2 manis. Tapi perasaan yang.. aku rasa nak ajer terbang pegi kat dia, peluk dia. Tapi kami dah jadi kawan sahaja. Dia dah ada orang lain. "Someone better", that is what my heart told me. Tapi aku... sedih, penat, sakit hati, celaru, bengang, lapar, haus, chagu, nasi lemak etc.. T.T

Kalaulah aku boleh ubah fikiran dia... It's too late. Aku taknak pengaruh apa2 keputusan dia sbb aku nak dia buat keputusan pakai daya sendiri. Aku taknak dia pilih aku just because she loves me (kalau btol lah dia sayang aku). Aku taknak dia susah... tapi skarang macam aku pulak yang susah HAHA.. Memang padan muka aku!

..... I am still in love with her and I don't know how long can I stand these things.. Depression sucks.. Nampaknya aku kene makan ubat tido lagi malam nih... *sigh*

Saya sayang awak lagi... T.T sampai bila aku nak tahan perasaan nih? Kalaulah boleh ada peluang.. T.T

-:Trail of Broken Hearts:-

It happens again. Time stand stills as I sit in my room, dumb-struck by what had happen. My mom is going into the operation room tomorrow. I hope she'll be fine. She has this some sort of a collection in her backbone, which gave pressure to her spine. She has been suffering from these illness for quite sometime, and as her only son I am quite frustrated due to the fact that I can do nothing but watch. It hurts. I hope she'll get well soon. I kinda miss her...

About US, WE are waiting for a miracle to happen. Thing turns out ugly. Suddenly I felt as if I am being a problem in her live. Don't get me wrong. I did not caused any trouble in her life, I AM THE TROUBLE. Because of me and my stupid ideas, she was scolded by her mother. I should have stop. I shouldn't make the next move. I have caused her grief.

This, plus the fact that my mom is in the hospital, is a great blow to me. And the worst part is that I can do nothing but watch. Watch as my mom helplessly moaning in pain, watch as SHE leaves me be. Being in such a mess is one thing, being in such a mess ALONE is a different thing all-together. Sometimes I do wish that this is all just a big ugly nightmare :P

But seriously, facing such situation alone is one hell-of-a-test. I need her the most now and it hurts to know that she is walking away.. Slowly, but surely, she is leaving me.

To HER whom I love... I am still in love with you, and I miss your laughter, your smiles, your way of making fun of me, your way of making fun of Puan Buncit (!), but most of all, I miss you who gave me strength when everyone else seems to let me down..

Someone please help me remember how to smile again.. T.T

"...with the trail of broken hearts.. flying freee...."

..................

My mom was hospitalized due to an unknown factor. I dun really know what am I feeling know. It's a sick feeling, in which you are seeing with your own eyes how your mom is suffering yet you cannot do anything aside from praying and hoping that she would get well soon.

Allah is trying to tell us something. Everything is from Him. He is the Al-Mighty, He is the One Giving Ailment and Cure. I seriously hope and pray that she will get well soon.

We are taking one step further. Dalam bala ada nikmat. Thank you sooo much Roslinda and Nazeema. These 2 girls has helped me a lot. Tatau camne nak balas jasa dorang. Hahahaha Iema setan! Kalau ko bace blog nih, aku nak ucapkan terima kasih sbb bersahabat ngan aku... :P and to Roslinda, thank you sooooo much!! Saaaayangg awak!! :P
















Nazeema on the left, with Fatimah, her room mate.. hahahah iema setan gilo!
















Roslinda and Me @ Bubur.. hahahahahah macam setan!

The blue thing called Spot...

Hahahahah blogging is good. Blogging is fun.

My job's a hassle. My boss is a being a fucker. Man I wish I could just give him one hell-of-a-punch right on his face. But naahh.. I'll skip it for later.

New friends means new life. I found a new.. well.. 'friend'.. at MISTI. It's an acronym (?) for Minggu Sains Johor. Has one good educative things there, thanks to PetroSains and Auspac.. :P heheheheheh

I'm feeling kinda down lately. I don't know how to express these feelings. But it sucks. Big time. So what did I do? Go to karaoke with my dear Lilo...!! Hahahaha.. gile aku pegi karaoke *benci aku* So I did what I do best.. screw the atmosphere!! :P We sang and laugh like a mad man laughing at the rain.

The YDP of PSSCM CJDT was admitted to HSA due to a heart attack. ALLAH is truly THE GREATEST. The big guy was down on the bed, gasping for breath. How I wish I could help him. And Nazeema's aunt was admitted, too. She was down with diabetes and had to had her leg amputated. I was soooo freaking sad when I visited her but hey, All might belongs to Him, aye? Hope both of these great and strong man and woman can overcome the obstacles.

Ok I admit. I've met someone. She is nice. She is great. She always make me laugh. AND she can accept most of my sarcastic jokes. Hmm... but this is for later, aye? I am beginning to.. well.. getting comfortable around her. Yet, I think problems will arise if I decide to take one step further.. So, like what she said.. "Waiting for a miracle to happen.."

Oh, for those of you who wonder about the title of this post, I have the answer right here ---> I have no idea about the blue thing.. hahah *menang*

Encik Li dan gitar Ibanez nya..

It's been GREEEAAAATT!!

I went to Herman Li's guitar clinic and it was AWESOME!! He was so freaking fast, but that's about it. He's fast, and he's technical. But when it comes to musical skills, I think he lacks a few finer points here and there. And he plays with his tongue. Man, his wife sure is lucky... :P

I kinda miss someone right now. And it's torturing me. Can't get her out of my mind. Oh.. and I am sick. I can't stand up straight. I can't even perform my solat properly. Man, I must be dying. If I am to die, I hope I'll die handsome :P

Work? Sucks. 'nuff said...

The Monkey Mocha performed at the UTM Battle of the Band yesterday. They were great! But we can't actually hear Shah's guitar, and Fariz forgot his lyrics, but hey! That is how DragonFroce started their band, aye? :P

Those UTM-ians dunno pure talent when they see one.

New job brings new life.

New job!

I am in the marketing field now. Kinda sucks, considering that my attitude is NOT for the sales line. Yet there I was, walking and selling stuff that is so expensive you can buy a house with it.

Working with a chinese company has it's, well, different atmosphere. You no longer understand what your colleague is talking about (unless, of course, they are speaking in English or Malay), you will feel pressure, and YES, you MUST learn how to use your time well.

Nothing much is there to talk about at my new office. This is because I don't actually STAY in the office, BUT there is one major significant change on my new job. I go home at 1715, that's 5.15pm. I arrive at home roughly around 1730, and I found myself dumb-struck coz I DUNNO WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!

Hehe.. jogging anyone?

No Topic needed...

I've heard about "I complaint about not having a shoe, until I met a man with no leg" kinda thing. I think it's an age-old saying. Well believe it or not, it happened to me, literally.

Some of those people from HQ came over to MCM JB today. One of 'em is this Technical' Head of Department. That makes him the boss of every Technical Executives that work under MEPS and MCM. This guy has almost everything. He has a good pay, a house, a dream car, a big family, good job.. U name it, he got it. But... last year he met with an accident and he lost his right leg. Not the up to the knee, but from his thigh. He has no right leg, literally.

Watching him made me feel, well, u know, kinda like, sad. I mean all of us can achieve what we've always wanted, be it a dream car, dream house, lovely spouse, a good job with high salary, but when we are busy chasing these so-called "reason for living", we over-looked the "things that kept us living".. these God-given gift that no one can replace. You cannot just go to a store and buy u'rself a new eyesight, heck even the eye. It is sad coz once u lost these blessings, they are lost. Forever.

So enough about these things. Went to Perlis for the 41st anniversary of Persatuan Seni Silat Cekak Malaysia. Not as big as the 40th anniversary in Ipoh but hey, I've journeyed from south of Malaysia up to the farthest north HOOOO!!! We nearly met an accident, though. -_-" Slept the whole time, I don't have the patient to sit and wait for 12 damn hours in the bus. How I wish i own a PSP... T.T

Life is getting better, or that's how I look at it. I am in the process of forgetting someone, someone whom I should have choose to love long ago. This is the 2nd time I am going through regrets. Regrets of letting her. Trying to call and sms her but she won't reply. I know she hates me. I just know it.

I hate these feelings. I wish she would be here and tell me it's ok. Kinda miss her attitute.. Kesian dier lurus sgt slalu kene sakat dengan aku..

Life goes on now, aye?

Weird People.. T.T

Lately I've been talking and laughing with a bunch of weird peoples. There are a bunch of weird girls and boys, woman and children who doesn't know just when to stop. I mean come on, you've already commit mistakes, then all you do is bitching about how others are at fault while you are as innocent as a baby. I've been bumping into these kinda person since I was in form 4. Awww man when will this curse stop?

I cannot put the full details here coz there is so much details to put in! Seriously. Let's just say that these kind of people are so egoistic until they can't admit their own fault. They tend to do whatever it takes so that the favor goes to them. What's funnier is that these kind of people tend to say things like "ALLAH tuh Maha Adil" or "Tuhan tu Maha Mengetahui", and then followed by "Tunggu ajelah balasan Allah!" etc.. Allah is Omniscience. This means that HE knows EVERYTHING. In Arabic, one of Allah's Glorious Names is "Al-'Aleem", which means He Who Knows Everything. This is where the word "ilmu", "ulama" derrived from. He is so great that even the word "ilmu" (knowledge) is from His Name. So, this means that EVERYTHING, yes, EVERYTHING, is within His Knowledge, and NONE are from us, unless what He wanted us to know.

By EVERYTHING, I mean that EVERYTHING, INCLUDING THOSE WORDS THAT THESE WEIRD PEOPLE TWISTED, PLOTTED OR WHATEVER THEY DID IN ORDER TO TURN THINGS TO THEIR FAVOR. This is why I say that they are weird. They claimed that Allah Knows Everything and Allah is Just and Swift in the Retribution, but lo and behold, it is they who are on the wrong side! These people are usually afraid to meet people face to face, but rather, they get the help of others. (Others here is those whom they manage to brainwashed and twist to their favor). Problem is I am one of those who are NOT afraid to meet up with these kind of people face to face, EVEN IF I AM ALONE. This is not a bragging statement or whatever, as I know that this kind of attitude tend to lead me to problems. But what can I say? I was taught this way, and those who learn with me will have the same attitude. We are not afraid of these kind of people. You can bring with you the whole world but we are not afraid!! DO NOT SHOW THAT YOU ARE INNOCENT AND USE ALLAH'S NAME WITH IT!! COZ IF I CAN PROVE TO YOU CRYSTAL CLEAR THAT YOU ARE DEAD WRONG, I AM NOT AFRAID TO KICK YOUR ASS TO THE MOON!!

Everyone has their dark side. Just make sure that you are not using ALLAH's name to cover your dark side.

These people didn't know that we are actually laughing at their own stupidity. The stupidity of their action to cover their own ass. They are willing to do EVERYTHING to make people believe that they are innocent. They can fool others, but they can't fool me and my bros. We kept quite, playing dumb so that we can laugh at their stupidity. They think that we kept quite coz they won. I pity them... *sigh*

Am I a physco (the miss-spelled is intentional) magnet?

Left or Right? It's right, right?

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

AreYou Right or Left Brained?

(Ripped from Intan's blog)

Check it out!! Balance!! HOOOOO!!! Err.. is this good or bad?

Bangkok Nite! Grand Finale...

Everything comes in 3. Spider-man has 3 movies. Lord of the Rings has 3 movies. Even The Matrix has 3 movies. So does my Bangkok post. :P





These girls actually dance for us. OMG. Check them out mm'kayy? They are soooo gorgeous. I think I need to find a siamese girl as my wife. Hehehehe...

No pictures were taken during dinner coz we were so damn hungry. It's Bangkok. It's a Buddhist country. Buddhist ate pork. We don't eat pork. Does that ring a bell? :D



Mmmmmmm MILF.... *drool*. She's the personal assistance to Dato'. She's funny, she's rich, she's gorgeous. Best of all.. she's married. :P



Ok this is the ONLY picture we took during dinner. Hahaha we ate our heart out.



We took this picture after we have checked out from the hotel. She is one cute girl. Man if she were to be my wife I would never go out at night again! For real..



This is the replica of the Royal Throne. It's in Suvarnabhumi's Airport.

Ok now I am too freaking lazy to upload any more pictures. Overall, the trip was a success. Everyone was happy. Even for me. Hehehe I wish we could do more activities. And most of the places forbids us from taking pictures. Damn it... T.T

Next trip would be Australia. If I am not mistaken, that is. I hope they won't be cancelling the Australia trip.

All hail King Kero-Kero!

Bangkok Nite! part Deux

The second day. We went to some of the Gem-Processing thing. I have no idea about the name of the place but we can't take any pictures inside. The picture above is AFTER we went into the place. Notice the guy in green? Yeah. That's me losing my brain after I've lost my cash (in baht :P ) to those pesky sales person. T.T



Those girls welcomed us the moment we sat foot on the ground. After we've bought hell of a gems from them, it won't hurt to take pictures now, does it? Notice the majestic-ly way I sat? That's my alter-ego, King Kero-Kero. :P



That, my friend, is Vivanmek Palace. It's the old palace, and the biggest structure made of teak wood. Due to some security shits, we were not allowed to bring any cameras inside, and we have to leave our phones in a locker.



Uhh... No I am NOT trying to grab hold of the butt. No I am NOT!!



Yup. That's my alter-ego :P



Try to read it in Thai. :P



Hooraayyyy!! We've conquered Vivanmek Palace!! Huhuhuhahahhahahah!!!



The King and his palace. :P

We didn't do anything much really. We've enjoyed ourself too much that we've forgot to take pictures. Later that night, we went on the tuktuk ride. It's something like a motored-trishaw or something like that.



That's the tuktuk. Yelah nampak aurat tak payah lah nak bising!!! T.T



The 3 of us went on it. Damn it sempit sial!! My ass went numb for 3 hours after that. :P



At last Jamal mengalah! Dier pegi naik tuktuk lagi satu!! :P *menang*

The driver took us around Bangkok. Had to pay him 200 baht per tuktuk. Who cares. So'od's paying for us. :P

The girls there are soooo damnn pretty. Not to mention those trannies, too. But in my own humble opinion, it's not suitable for those on a honeymoon. I mean c'mon!! Girls just came up to you and gave you the offer you CAN'T refuse. But I did. Seriously. I mean it. I DID!! T.T

Next post is the last dinner. Something like the last supper, but with more girls. :P

Bangkok Nite!

On 11th May 2007 we had a very nice trip to Bangkok. Our flight was on 8:45am. I didn't sleep that night. Not because of the excitement, but because of that stupid Okami game which gets on my nerve. Freaking wolf trying to be the sun goddess... T.T

Anyway Teh picked me up at roughly around 6:30am and we went to pick up Ali (what a damn typical Malay name :P ) at one of the McD's outlet near here. After that we went to pick up Ina at her home in Taman U. One hell of an adventure, as the traffic jam is inevitable and Teh's driving skills are like.. uhh.. let's just say that my mom drove better than him. :P

Us @ Senai Airport.

Went on the plane on time. Arrived at LCCT roughly 45 minutes after take-off. We were sitting duck for about 4 hours before our flight to Bangkok. Nothing much happened there, except that we all sits on the floor enjoying our hearty breakfast of Nasi Ambang courtesy of So'od.

Ali, Teh and your's truly.

Bangkok was nice! I mean seriously, I think it's more modernized than Johor Bahru. Well you can't blame them. It's Thailand's capital city, aye? And check this out : Bangkok's real name is not really Bangkok. Confused? The original name for the city is Krung Thep Maha Nakhon, which translated as "Kota Maha Dewa" in Malay. Sounds cool, huh? 2nd fact, that is just the short name for the REAL name of the city. The real name?

Krungthep Mahanakhon Amonrattanakosin Mahintharayutthaya Mahadilokphop Noppharatratchathani Burirom-udomratchaniwet Mahasathan Amonphiman Awatansathit Sakkathattiya Witsanu Kamprasit.

"The city of angels, the great city, the eternal jewel city, the impregnable city of God Indra, the grand capital of the world endowed with nine precious gems, the happy city, abounding in an enormous Royal Palace that resembles the heavenly abode where reigns the reincarnated god, a city given by Indra and built by Vishnukam"

For some reason, the word 'Dewa' is given the meaning of 'Angels' here. I have no freaking idea why.

The Angel?

This is what greeted us once we've arrived at Suvarnabhumi Airport, Bangkok. There are 4 other statues like this, one with a different colours. One main problem here in Bangkok is that most of the people can't speak English. Even if they could, it's very, very, very broken and you would have to have the patients of a teacher to at least know what the heck they are saying. This is because Thailand was never occupied, and so the people really uphold their tradition. A very contrast situation to us Malaysians, as most of us are trying to be a Punk or a Satanist. No hard feelings now, aye?

Then it's just another typical trip. THe best part is the dinner. We went on a cruise which cruises across Bangkok along god-knows-the-name-of-the-river. The cruise name is Chao Praya Princess. I guess the river is Chao Praya? O.o

The cruise was cool!! Hey it rhymes.. uhh.. anyway.. it really has this cool atmosphere.. well.. you know.. uhh..

This is Jamal and me. Yeah we were doing that gay shit on board. Who the hell cares? Thailand is a free country now aye? heheh

OMG there is so much to write.... Let's just put photos now aye?

Me and Teh


Me, Jamal and So'od



This is MY fav!! It's like me and my pet dragon Lulu.. Oh Lulu I miss you.. T.T


With those Shah Alam girls... :P


Jazz anyone?

Will return with the 2nd post. We went to the palace HOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Melodies of Life.. :P

Melodies of Life
Emiko Shiratori
OST Final Fantasy IX

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life--love's lost refrain

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

I am so sorry!!

I am so sorry Elaine! I was forced to do it! It ain't my fault! U know I won't lie to my old grandmama now, aye? T.T

10.3.2007, Shah has met with an accident. Called up Elaine. She came to the Hospital, controlling her so-called nacho-libre, I mean, macho-ness thang. We talked to her, explain to her how chronic and serious Shah was, and she started to have 'em WATERY EYES. We try to cool her down, telling her to pray for our dear friend. We ushered (btol ker aku eja nih?) her to Danga Bay, talked things over. It seems that Shah has been acting up real strange and our dear Ms Eliana didn't notice the difference. Poor Eliana. She was feeling rather guilty, full of remorse. She even notice that Shah gave her a lil present. She must be pretty tied up inside. We were quite angry at her, she knew Shah didn't have enough sleep, and he was pretty mad at his discussion group. She didn't stop him from going back to JB.

Eliana's face was full of tears and mucus from her nose. We can see how sad, how guilty, how remorse she must have felt. Suddenly, miracles happen. An unknown person walked up slowly behind her and touched her shoulder lightly, telling her to "Sabarlah ni kan dugaan". She turns to look, and LO AND BEHOLD, SHAH'S STARED BACK AT HER WITH A SMILE ON HIS FACE. An angel? A demon? Nenek Kebayan? Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam? Puteri Gunung Ledang? Nope. It's just US PLAYING A SICK PRANK ON OUR GRANNY, MS. ELIANA TAKBIR.

HAHA GRANNY LU KENA BEB!!!

After that it was full of laughters, and of course we were SERIOUSLY scared of our granny suddenly turned into a super-saiya, limit-break, trance, thing. Maybe her bar went up to the max and she uses the desperation move. Down Back Down Forward + Heavy Punch. Started the chasing scene. Thank God I didn't get that super-deadly-hellish-angelic-holy-Crabby Punch. I'm telling ya. I prefer to die by Ghost Rider's Penance Stare rather than living with Eliana's Crabby Punch scar on my body.

All's well end's well. Just to tell her how much we all LOVED her! And also to teach her how to at least APPRECIATE THOSE AROUND U, AS 'LATER' MIGHT BE TOO LATE. A lesson everyone should learn and understand. Eliana's lucky she learned it this way. Others learn it the hard way. T.T

What kind of sick fuck are we anyway, hanging out at the hospital's A & E? Oh and we are proud of ourselves, aye Fariz? We are like THE partner in crime.. Bonny and Clyde, urm.. who's gonna be Clyde?

Happy Birthday Granny. Hell of a birthday present now, aye? :P

I AM BACK!

Yes! I am back! HOOOOOOO!!!

Entered 2007 the same way I've entered 2006... Nothing much is new.. Except of course I've found new friends, (BAYAH BAYAM IS THE SIS EVER!! :P) and those long-lost friends...

One of my bestfriend really hurt me. And to top up the pain, I didn't do anything now, aye? I mean... I didn't intentionally hurt her feelings or something like that. I dunno what have got into her.... maybe she watched too many movies?

Oh! Oh! I've furthered my study in UiTM Melaka. Met new friends there. They are a bunch of to-old-to-study man and woman trying to set things right, just like me. Education is a must. Nowadays people just by the papers u possess, not the skills. You can be such a fuck but when u run around telling those interviewers u got a master, u'll get u'r self a job.

Trying to beat Dragon Quest 8 and Rogue Galaxy. Can't wait for God Of War 2 to be released. Oh I've borrowed a black Ibanez Gio from Topek, Bayah's lil bro. Abeh lah aku dapatkan sume lead lagu. Let's start with Crazy by Aerosmith... I go crazy.. crazy.. crazy.. for u babi... I mean.. baby...